Till I've Found Today

by Dayrider

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1.
Look Again 02:33
Laying waterside, staring up Wet sand in hand starring at the sky’s buttercup Seems the waters rise too high sometimes The waves crashing down for unknown crimes Life may be hard and the choices harder Some live for life, some live for martyr Seems the waves can be your desires thrashing about You want it all but can’t get it out Difficult to figure out how to motivate Crack the kindness, speak of the whip Wander inside for that which hides You’re usually down when you know you’ve tipped The door won’t open, I shake myself A dead end doesn’t mean all’s over In a tranquil garden weeds appear All is life, have no fear When you’ve wandered too long Feelings can be reminiscent The leaves have turned again Don’t try to find where summer went Tis the season to be jolly Backwards in a cycle is folly To feel what you’ve felt again The rebirth is purpose for the wise To be again, to remember surprise To know of what you know to rise Look again with open eyes
2.
And once we realize We’re a dog chasing its tail We come close to finding time For better things to prevail Sometimes you’ve just got to go On and on without it Instead of getting caught up In getting caught up Like a boy leading his kite Yet trying to fight the wind Venturing closer to trees Because he thinks open space is a breeze With intelligence comes assumptions Of things being understood The simple can be hard The simple can be good I’m getting sick of all these tangents Of no conclusion and faceted diversion I just wish I could slash through This jungle of a mind’s perversion There’s El Dorado and an aficionado Of exploring I’ve come to be Through the rain and under the canopy There’s life and more to see The dome above, this sky of mine Piercing through the branches Being south of snow and trees still Protect me from the sun’s advances An expedition in a direction Feels good to go for a goal On my way the way I’d like Coming since and going so And once I realize To avoid “and once” To do it when I can And as I must I’ll be moving forward Against time’s steady hand One thing’s for certain Don’t worry if you’ll understand The saturation of the foliage against my path A silent treatment of silence’s wrath Hear the drone of life in play Unending for another day I’ll keep slashing I stake my claim And once and for all I’m free of blame
3.
On my way back By these breadcrumbs of mine Chasing them backward Ever lesser the time Sometimes it feels Like my memories come to me In an instant The more I learn The more I seem to remember Trying to figure out what I had When I didn’t know what it was A storehouse full of moments With nothing but because Revelations Empty Stations Is anybody else on this ride? I got on and spread my legs In this cabin till I’ve found today Inside I’ve found an archive Of things I’ve lived and held close Though never understood Like something hid beneath a flower’s pedals Waiting to bloom when the sun was true The attendant of circumstance Always brings a meal The conductor of reality Keeps us between the rails They never asked for my ticket Because the voyage is mine The baggage I brought on Seems little now The view outside the window Seems not to matter to progression Onward and forward As I’ve learned that lesson Up the hills and over the mountains Will and wisdom know few bounds Life can be stingy enough But the good deeds will come round From above there seems but steam A cloud of what I try to mean The bumps I feel remind me still Of what little can be to those once ill Through the cabins Eyeing more There’s plenty yet To be in store On my way back By these breadcrumbs of mine Going through life Ever lesser the time
4.
In the Sun 02:46
And yet again I’m in the debris Under collapsed walls of conjecture and history When you worry it all, you worry yourself small And make it feel like you can do nothing at all There’s only one time you’ve got to live It’s called the present, the here, the now If you don’t believe me Let me try to show you how Yes the future is where we can be Better tomorrows come from productive todays But it’s not here till it is so don’t let it come crashing down Unless you’d rather be stuck with a frown Yes the past somehow seems to last Over and over we remember what could have been had But as life goes on you’ll only get farther away from them So don’t make now another past you regret For too long I’ve laid here in this debris For too long I’ve tried and couldn’t see I’ve got a chance to rise from it all It may not be perfect but I’ll take it I’m sick of being small Those times spent under it all Make me feel I’ve lived a thousand years When it’s just you in a box with darkness When it’s just you in a box with fears I’ve come to realize it didn’t all happen at once Slowly and slowly I’ve made and rebuilt walls You think they keep you safe, you think they’re there to help But for every time they’ve fallen in, were you glad you had them? Stop spending all your time on palaces of possibility And grand pyramids of days come and gone There’s now all around you, Now as far as the eye can see Get out of this mess you’re in And make yourself a worthy history I’m ready to break these shackles I’ll figure out why I was in them later If I actually want to see clearly I’d be better off in the sun "All that glitters is gooolllddd..."
5.
Here I am, the land inside Between past and future, side by side Things are so real, things are so grand When you see true colors, there’s so much less bland What keeps coming to, as a way to be Is to play it on through All the maps in the world won’t do you any good If you can’t find your bearings And as well things became much simpler As you made your way up the tree of possibility When you’re stuck at its base, branches galore No wonder you feel glued to the floor But as you climb things become clearer Less branches to worry about Less for foliage to hide As the goal becomes more feasible And less lost in your dreams It feels hope is a light that flickers and gleams Another tree I ought to take note of Is the ever weeping willow We all think it’s sad for it lets no one in But when you’re inside there’s so much room And so little wind What it keeps covered up, it ought to share And not keep hidden like some unknown hero in its lair Spread your arms and let the whole world see What’s only ever looked like misery I feel when you’re present Whole and so true That there’s so little That you can’t seem to do On this mountain, this moment of now Slopes of past and future all around Trying to have me roll all the way down Letting me know what this peak took to have found Things are so much simpler My dreams feels like they’ll be there when I awake Problems are problems but they’re much less obscene And I don’t give myself the option to blow them up As nothing more than hot air of worry That grew a small problem into a flurry I’m sick of the past as I’ve been there, done that Don’t want to spend my hours worrying how long things will last Learn what can be learned and leave it be Why stay crawled up in the footnotes of your history? As far as the future, as far as I’ll be Try to go where I’m headed, try to reach what I see As for anything that comes in my way I’ll just play it on through, day after day
6.
All But 03:39
Awake at night I’ve tossed and turned Enough to feel like Yarn in a knitter’s hand Through and through On and on Kept up on getting caught up An underlying tone which just won’t conclude Tired now, tired then Ink slowly seeping through this pen What I wouldn’t give for some peace of mind Or just a peaceful point in time Comfort seems like an old tale Alluded to in crowded taverns Colluding with conflicting actions Action that is, comfort through doing Seems like escape but maybe you do So that you can enjoy when you don’t That there actually be some content to turn about Actually be something, less of a someone I’m not sure but boy, Have I ever fought With this demon of indecision And overbearing thought What could have been Hounds me longer Then I’d like to know It’s been too long I’ve got to go I’ve said it a thousand times To a thousand rhymes With the tune ever saying You’ve done all but do I’ve opened the door The wind’s rolling through Now’s the time To finally do
7.
Here I am Lost in the forest of my good intentions I can be My worst enemy As I sabotage what could have been fine That is, a self I love Time after time Isn’t it sad How we blame ourselves so When from our heart never left Anything meant to hurt Yet pain finds us again and again And when he turns to that eternal friend He finds the darkness in the light If I love myself, why the fight Day 8 in this forest I’ve been here before Let’s circle round this tree again As if there could be anymore Through the canopy I see the sky Such beauty with such little why Shining down unabashedly Daring me to finally be free In this forest I hear a man He say go on, he says I can If I believe in me, what’s to fear? A conscious is with me here Tread on, through the tangled expanse When I entered I can’t remember Must have wandered in but on a whim It was much easier to leave back then I’ve tried to run, I’ve tried to climb It doesn’t really save any time There’s only an end When you realize what you’re in See beautiful flowers and chirping birds They’ve found themselves in here as well Some people never realize where they’ve been That the light above could have been less dim A stream of life, I’m on its shore There’s been so many here, and only more A telling sign of life’s downstream flow A splash of water to my face will help me grow There’s been paths, I’ve known them well But a while ago I ventured off the trail I tried to find it again to no avail Just because it looks like it’s going somewhere Doesn’t mean you can end your tale Which is why I’m alright without the trail So many stick to it thinking That it’s got their best interest at heart But the trail’s only so visible as it’s ever been trodded You only ought to take it If it’s best for you Not because You think it’s the thing to do For I’ve come to learn to navigate For direction’s sake To do what it takes So that I can get through this
8.
Help Me 04:06
This is a cover of an old blues song by Sonny Boy Williamson II Original lyrics: You got to help me I can't do it all by myself You got to help me, baby I can't do it all by myself You know if you don't help me darling I'll have to find myself somebody else I may have to wash I may have to sew I may have to cook I might mop the floor but you help me babe You know if you don't help me darling I'll find myself somebody else When I walk, walk with me When I talk, you talk to me Oh baby, I can't do it all by myself You know if you don't help me darling I'll have to find myself somebody else Help me, help me darlin' Bring my nightshirt Put on your morning gown Bring my nightshirt Put on your morning gown Darlin' I know we stripped bare But I don't feel like lying down
9.
I don’t want to be cold I just want to be me But you’re making things harder Than they need to be There are moments Some I can’t tell apart Where if you give her a smile She’ll give you her heart A parade of reasons A carnival of what ifs I just wanted to know How it was going Seems you don’t have to stay long To be on for the ride Let’s just hope We’re ever with the tide And in some ways, it’s all a game Of different times and different names You may make no moves, but they’ll frame you as a player What if I feel like I don’t want to play her? There’s a reason you need confidence in spades Some girls will find themselves half empty, no matter your ways In a minefield of their own making, no matter your intent I wish not being your somebody didn’t make me feel so spent It seems a youthful heart knows no lies At times it lives, at times it dies It’ll give your everything, no need to say a word When it starts pumping, let’s hope you’ve already heard As you stand by castles and in ruins And under blue skies in the rain Know you’ve still got time to figure it out To be free of the pain Through it all, can’t say I didn’t try To not just be another guy
10.
Don’t do tomorrow What you can do today Get it off your mind For another time Don’t watch it roll When you can make it stop If things go downhill It won’t be as easy Don’t hope to remember What’s easily forgotten When you held it but in the air Tied down not anywhere Across the river There’s buildings to the sky From this bench The bustling seems quite How often we forget How much goes on There’s people chasing things down hills All around us There’s people feeling out of place When they’ve stopped trying to find one There’s people with a lonely face As they’ve yet to know a sad now isn’t forever My fingers fall on the ivory keys Like raindrops from a high above cloud Hear the ripples of longer days Water for life, for better ways Give what you’ve got And whenever it returns The energy will feel yours And the results now earned Don’t do tomorrow What you can do today There’s more to be had Wouldn’t want it any other way
11.
Stompa 04:28
This is a cover of Stompa by Serena Ryder from 2012 The lyrics to the original: There's a light and I can see it in your eyes There's a memory of the way you used to be Nothing's gone it still shines every time you turn it on And when you slow it down... People, working every night and day Never give yourself no time Got too many bills to pay Slow down, nothing's gonna disappear If you give yourself some room To move to the music you hear Gotta get up, listen to me Clappa your hands, stompa your feet People, looking for the great escape Looking to the greener side Trying to find a better way Slow down; open up your big brown eyes Feel the rhythm in your heart You don't even need to try Gotta get up, listen to me Clappa your hands, stompa your feet Nothing is wrong, if you move to the beat Clappa your hands Stompa your feet Stompa your feet When you can't seem to shake off all the feelings that are breaking Little pieces of the music that's in you All the pain that you feel I can prove it's not real There's just one thing you gotta do Gotta get up, listen to me Clappa your hands, stompa your feet Nothing is wrong, if you move to the beat Clappa your hands Stompa your feet Stompa your feet Stompa your feet, stompa your feet
12.
I’m floating around My head’s in the clouds Distantly near Closed but here I’ll think about this Ponder over that The circles in the sand Waves reprimand Not near enough out For what goes in You’ve got what it takes But you have to give it to win The crisp ocean breeze As I straddle along Helps me return To where I’ve yet to be With my eyes to the telescopes Gazing above Can it ever be hard to see What’s right in front of me The stars go shooting Man down, I’m hit Step on a comet’s tail And now I’m bit The mountain tops, the hills I climb The stars came closer every time The midnight sun, the waves it brought Helped me closer to what’s now sought I paddle on towards the edge Starring out the skies of my eyes If I keep going I’ll make it there A silent surprise through the tear I take a breather above the deep And feel the ocean’s rumble Good to know what small waves show That power can be humble The seagulls fly near me now A whale spouts and floats as well There’s a journey to be had, we all know And only time will tell Another day’s sun falls slowly from the sky Another less unanswered why The starry blue, constellations too Are calling me, how about you
13.
Strongholds 04:22
For once I’d like to Cut with the grain Things wouldn’t shake so much And leave my cutting hand in pain I guess limits are easier to find For those who get little out of the grind Push them more, push them farther Do they hold us back or together? Could just be there if you need them For those unsure of what to do For those who take so little to get so blue On and on, through and through Meanwhile though, on I go Through strongholds in a country of warring circumstance Bastions of meaning, defense from the reeling So grand and timeless though perpetually fleeting From this castle top, beneath the sun Starring out at battlefields, some yet to be won For there to be a banner, it only takes one If you build it, they will come See smoke rising in the distance, I must be off From this place to another, as it’s ever been I hope time and company will take care of this place If I ever want to return in memory or in haste As I fade from now I turn and stare At this stronghold in time, that made things fair There’s a smile on my face as I’m glad to see Up there on castle top Blowing in the wind, A banner placed by me
14.
On an island, under a tree Living life ostensibly On the shore, cast in hand Hoping for a bite to land Staring outward, sun in sky I wonder where I’ve ever been I do better, but I want my best I want it with me for every test I cast away into the blue Are you looking for me Cause I’m looking for you Feet in sand and ready to reel It will take quite a while To let you know how I feel At a loss of words For I’ve got too many Can’t seem to find The good in the plenty Oh mind of mine, I’ve got to consider The days I’ve had and the many winter Don’t do yourself wrong when life’s already on it You’re better than your circumstance, don’t ever forget that It’s amazing the roads we can take to the same place But so few do too many consider There’s snow in your eyes and ice on your smile Yet many have never seen a tree wither So many times, we’ll reach a place Without a thought of where from You’re now unsure with a fitting face Now I’m the only one Even if I had all the time I’m not sure I could explain Why some things happen and happen again What keeps coming to mind though, Through all the paths they didn’t find Is that it’s a long story anyway. I guess the hurdles of complicated people Are the simple things And the hurdles of the simple Are the complicated I just wish I could reach in my pocket Take out and open a scratched but loved locket Which illuminates the situation, projects what I’ve found A hologram of all the pages my book’s had bound I guess there’s always another side I just may not show what’s easy to hide For me that is, I’ve kept it all in You’re not weak, you’ve run yourself thin Cast away, I’m off again Looking for my long lost twin When I find him, I’ll let you know Or maybe he will, only time will show
15.
Sometimes, things seem so far away On and on throughout the day Whether you’re stressed or pressed or just a mess Don’t just hover around the moments digressed Clocking in and zoning out Forgot what I was thinking about Tangents off thoughts of another time Seems for every present I’m stuck in line Looking for meaning, wanting a prize Something to capture, an apple of my eyes Chasing desires around and around Coming to in a circle ten feet in the ground So odd how the important things get in the way Of the trivial things we pursue many a day I’d like to think I know what it’s all for Should probably know what I want before I want more There’s bells in the distant, the hour’s struck a new There’ll always be something that you’d rather do On plays the drummer boy, I’d like to find the echo As nice as curtains are, I wouldn’t mind a show Wandering about on this little world of mine I spend my days in the observatory Above the clouds, there’s a world milling about And every person’s a star, I wonder who you are I see constellations across my sky Of time’s gone by and better ways To enjoy myself, to live it all Why do I walk through life like I’m about to fall? * Scroll through the archives, see supernova’s past Those that lived are those that last See a message, stamped and sent in space There’s only one world you’ve got to embrace Up on mountain high, staring out I want to know what life’s about Should I build a spaceship or let them in Maybe I’ll cut through the sky and let it all out Softly holding scissors Safely pointed away I’d like to think today was another Step headed the right way

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released April 17, 2016

Guitar - Brandon
Bass - B Dawg
Cheap Electronic Pad Drum Kit - John Branham
Piano - Ludwig Van Brantoven

Thanks to Audrey Galat for the Album Cover and Back Cover artwork
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Shout out to Cameron "Cam to the Ameron" Carr and Mo "Mo Buckets" Barre for helping me make this record a reality

This is an album made for music and for myself

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