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Misfire on a Warring Day
02:55
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Shells exploding
My day's new stars
Bullets flying
No man's land so far
I hear it patter
Each Boom's the matter
I've dug myself in
When will it wear thin
Purpose eludes me, as does death's shot
Left alone, left to count what I've got
Finally! An Enemy! Something to go away.
Pull the trigger but he still stands
Misfire on a warring day
And I'm losing it and I've just lost
Mind's racing and I can't keep near
Battle not mine, battle of time
When I can choose I remember fear
Shells exploding, bullets flying
But that man of mine on mind.
Holding up but he was too much
That soldier of many in time
Those angers released, hinges ungreased
Rattle the cages, Why's life on a lease
Hear a yell in the distance at the fray
Just another misfire on a warring day
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2. |
Falling
03:48
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Distance myself from others
Falling deeper inside myself
I'm not sure who they're calling
But he's gone, silence in wealth
Stares uncertain, smiles awry
Jokeless laughs, Murmurs circle
I am who I am but could I be better?
Or am I burdened with a scarlet letter?
Dry of doubt but the stairs seem taller
A step and a miss and now I'm falling
I slam eject, gone as can be
Confidence standing now confidence crawling
Hold my ground but I've overanalyzed
I'm falling, I'm falling
Prepared so much yet there's always a surprise
I'm falling, I'm falling
Thinking relaxed though pressure on the rise
What a castle to be toppled by Hi's
Fingers in the dirt, black hole of worry
Dragging me backward, to within myself
Why am I unstable, my story so fabled
Always ready but never seem to be able
I'm falling
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3. |
Kaleidoscope
07:20
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Kaleidoscope of perception
When looking through at me
Who is he? Well what happened
It decides who he'll be
Understood as funny
Laughs ever horizoned
All phrases questioned answered "Who's there?"
Seen joking to an extent I wouldn't dare
Understood as serious
To those ever ending
Nothing doesn't mean I'm keen on something
I just don't mind, a held bell's ring
Understood as smart
Always served with pretention
I might as well open a massage parlor
Because no matter what, I'm rubbing it in
Understood as worried
But then, aren't we all
Can't nay say without tipping the boat
In Hotel Within do not disturb I wrote
Understood as an ass
He's blunt and hits too hard
When not a care given and a rush to end
Ready to fight but be ready to fend
Understood as odd
Welcome to miscellaneous
He could be great yet he could be crazy
Terminally different, seen as hazy
Understood as me
When's that going to be
Should I be more myself
Or am I stuck in stealth
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4. |
Sky Blue
09:39
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Oh, and ever is it blue
Could never explain it to you
Look up to see it spread the sky
Know not what but wonder why
A canvas alone impressing
Times forgotten but never digressing
I gaze out to see it high
The horizon falling inward
No wonder we wish to rise
A beauty if could I would gather
And it draws me in further
As the world draws on her ceiling
Gravity is a need be
For I'm floating up from the reeling
In a world of pointless wrongs
With radios tuned in to somber songs
Sky Blue is a reasonless right
Forever looming until the night
And when Night Dark fills up above
With beauty that is tough to love
The unknown begin marching beneath the rays
Lighting up paths when I don't know the ways
Darkness falls as shadows stay
Sky Blue reveals the better days.
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5. |
In Case (I Forget)
06:27
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In case I forget
And the world won't relent
Keep moving forward
Despite time being spent
In case I forget
Dropped and hidden intent
I mean to go on
But will I settle for rent
If ever I wander
Home is inside
Directionless and lost?
Take a breath and bide
My heart keeps pumping
My soul must be alive
How can essence fade
If it's you that dies
There whispers a doubt
Flick and put it out
There appears a route
See what it's about
I feel practicality fading
Is that because things are simpler
Maybe it's tough to be strong
When life is going easy
Challenges with the know how
How to move unmeasured distance
Reach for that level unknown
But where to throw the bone
If ever I try to be them
Stop and try again
Those the most true are those the least subdued
Venturing beneath above the rest
If ever I can't confess
That I'm in or past a mess
Let me know that the scoreboard shows
Mistakes made known are stepping stones
If the world won't relent
If my armor feels a dent
Visit a blacksmith
And don't circumvent
Feel it inside
Life is a ride
You must be this ready
To stare at rolled dice
If time feels spent
With loans out of question
Speed up the slowing down
And answer what lingers
If apathy drags her feet unhindered
Without a care worth sparing
Don't put down a foot splintered
If you intend to stay through the wearing
In case I forget
Knows faded to I bets
I'm always going to be here
No matter how far I'm taken
I cant help but hold on
No matter how hard I'm shaken
Lighthouse shine on through the sea
Now anchor up, let's wake me
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6. |
Wishing Well
05:54
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Sometimes I make a mistake
Fully knowing the reality
Feels good to fire back
In the way that things should be
Sometimes I daze and muse
Understanding of the blank stares
Conversation is a casualty of confusion
When discovery is the only care
Sometimes I say too much
With so few words spoken
Truth can be a blunderbuss
To those unknowingly broken
Sometimes I listen to those
Who have very little to say
Can't see their cut corners
While they stare forward on their way
Sometimes I don't take a breather
When I'm running down the track
Yes, it's hard to move on slowly
But that doesn't mean I'm going back
Sometimes I wallow in contempt
Or throw the compass of misdirection
Weathering through with hopes of dry
In a world raining with corrections
I wish I was as I wish I might
I wish tomorrow could be tonight
I wish the truth would bark not bite
Maybe then it'll be alright
I flip a coin into the wishing well
I say it flew but I know it fell
If I can't trust others how can I trust time
My paradise of tomorrow can only be mine
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7. |
A Maze
05:33
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It can be what you make of it
If you make it alright
When life's a balancing act
It's harder to make things last
It amazes me what I failed to see
Bustling around in the hedgerows
Wish it was what I now know it to be
But wishes aren't well spent on woes
How I made it through the maze at all
To me stands higher than any wall
For all the things that made me check the map again
They showed me with everything there's a when
Why there was a maze at all is another tale
Not every boat has wind on its sail
No matter where we wander through
What you see in things comes from you
Preconceptions are the limit for those who fail to question
What could it be if it wasn't what it is
That may sound like a spacey full circle in the sand
But do you really think that the things which stand before you
Never crawled or sat or almost didn't happen
That it always was and will forever be?
So as you walk down crowded streets
Conversations passing by, eyes distant, and places to be
Everyone you brush by is just as you
Within themselves without themselves
Some people are always looking
And some people become what they are looking for
And for all the times you've failed to try
Remember failure isn't the end
My eyes grow heavy as I slip away with another day
I've always got to believe I'll find a way
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8. |
Color
03:12
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"What color is in a picture, enthusiasm is in life."
- Vincent van Gogh
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9. |
Welcome
02:57
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Welcome world
As I see you to be
Things have hardly been
When I was hardly me
It's hard to know what's hard to say
Or at least it seems to be that way
You'll be inside out before they'll know what's within
Might as well take heed but take what you can
Leading may just be convincing others
To follow you as you follow yourself
The wonders of the world were made
By those who wondered it through
How can you hope to see the end
If you stop at every twist and bend
Know your limits but know when you're lying
If you haven't faltered then you're not trying
Just because you arrive differently
Doesn't mean the destination changes
Yet the windowed view of what passed you by
Affects every sight that now meets your eye
The world seems to come alive
From the first rays of a rising sun
No longer have to run or hide
When there's no reasons left for fooling what can lie inside
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10. |
Going
03:40
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If you wait for things to be easy
Waiting's what you'll be
You get closer to the finish line
When you take a step, not measure one
I can't tell you how many times I've told myself
That the lights had all but changed
Why am I letting life rule me
Might as well wait for the stars in the sky to rearrange
A lot of things in life
Feel like islands an ocean away
I know where I want to be and I know how to row
But I always worry I may not be able to fight the flow
I'm coming to realize it's not A to B
A straight line may be shortest but it's unlikely
Sometimes you're a bird in a cage of circumstance
But that doesn't mean you forgot how to fly
As you distance yourself from pats on the back
You come closer to stability
A watched pot doesn't boil
And watching one is quite the toil
You get your mind on something and fixated on the end
Oh the glory, the fulfillment, the nows if now was then
But hey there, we are in the present
The hardest thing to do
Did you not know or did you chose to not remember
Regardless, the present's calling you
You're happier when you are in
Warm and comfortable surroundings
The soft bed of a past you know you can't change
With a future that helps you drift on to the next day
Long days are for when you aren't all done
With a list unchecked
A pen you hold in your hand
And an overwhelming sense of what's to come
It may not be as easy as it used to be
As you want it to be
As you thought it would be
Things may seem less clear then they used to be
When I couldn't see
When I wasn't me
When your world changes, it does just that
Take another look at the tattered map
Remember how it was, always
But know what's in the cards and what game you're playing
Make the best of what you've got
You can't have what there isn't to have
You can't win if you don't know the rules
You can't get what you aren't willing to lose
Get your hands on those oars and paddle on
Feel content with the wind on your neck
A sky above that makes light of limits
And the shore you so easily left behind
That's going
Going
Gone
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11. |
SS Restrained
05:01
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Welcome aboard the SS Restrained
Our servants in gold, no signs of distress
When the seas are calm, we’re doing alright
Anything else and we’re in for a fight
Tables in order, a deck with a blinding shine
You never would guess how much we’re a mess
Can’t help but hope a nice breeze will take over
And keep this ship running down the right line
There’s a cot on the observation deck
Does it ever look like home
We love to see what’s coming
Does it ever hurt us so
I’ve slipped away from the parade
To take a look inside
The servants are two to a mattress
And so very thinly supplied
Seems I’ve found the engine room
Is it ever running hot
We may have pushed the limits
But at some point you’ve got to stop
The storage room is brimming with life
We’ll be great if we make it there
The boat releases a metal roar
I feel a rumble, better head upstairs
There’s a storm on the horizon
And we’re headed straight towards it
The crew doesn’t seem to care
I shout but not a stare
I look for the captain but he’s heading the parade
I guess today’s the day I’ve got to save
I run for the helm, let’s turn it around
But in my way, a barricade is found
Of all the places, why here?
How the hell am I to steer?
Are we forever dictated by the waves
And what we happen to be near?
I run to the captain and yell “Change the course!”
He turns and slowly says, with a voice too far hoarse
“This boat can never rock, never by my hand
We’ve got to keep her floating, we’ve got to make land”
Would you look where we’re headed?
Can’t you see what’s in store?
How can you expect to never turn
And make it to the shore
We’re headed straight in, brace yourself
I’m running for the helm as they’re running from themself
Trying to break the barricade, not much more I can do
The servants still scurry about trying to stay in queue
The sea begins to thrash the side of the boat
Sky engulfed in gray with a wind's gusting song
This couldn’t be the first time, but why would you ever
It’s hard to move forward when you’re always holding on
My hand grows red from grasping steel
We’d be surprised to know how little we feel
The servants are slipping and falling all around
Trying to keep the show on the road
The weather clears up, we’ve made it to the eye
Even SS Restrained can’t keep from a smile
The moments are enjoyed, the crew cleans the floor
Those happy with little always deserve more
We’re headed back through, all hands on deck
Can’t say that we’re not used to the trek
I’m working on through, the barricade’s lessened
Hopefully soon we won’t be so fenced in
The waves crash on deck, the sea’s never done
The ocean can be played but it can never be won
Doesn’t help that we’re the only one
We don’t ask for help even when we need a ton
The storm has passed, we’re alright
We’ll live the day since we’ve won the night
I call on the captain, “Wouldn’t you come here”
I’ve made it to the helm,
Now it’s time you’ve learned to steer
Notes: I like to think of the upbeat part near 2:40 as the eye of the storm, with the storm preceding and following it. Also, I like to think the slides in the last part of the song are as waves, crashing against the sides. It's another way to look at it.
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12. |
All Along
02:27
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The blanks I fill
Without a need
My imagination’s loose
And eager to explore
The woulds, the coulds
What ifs and more
When you can’t help but wonder
You’ll think yourself thin
You’re stuck in your ways
Because you always find a reason
Yet the better places to be
Don’t require this many
Here it comes again
They’ll always be a when
Till you realize that hesitation
Rash indecision and lost persuasion
All are signs that can point to
The holes you’re trying to come through
So open up, don’t slam the door
What’s to lose when anything’s more
Don’t be a ghost, don’t float around
You may feel less but you’re surely bound
Take a stand, find out what’s right
Keep your hands to yourself and always fight
If you have a say let it be heard
There’s life to be had from the passing of a word
Should have been said for too long
You always convince yourself something’s wrong
Could have been done when it started
The will and time were always parted
Would have been no more but here we are
With shoes at the door and a key in the car
Don’t beat yourself up
You’ve done it enough
Be the strength
You want to love
Gather the troops and raise the flag
Put your sword to the grindstone
Load your wits in the chamber
Get fortune in your favor
And carry on
The past is history
The future’s for later
Introduce the rubber to the road
And make yourself wonder
What you’ve been doing all along
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